Every time I walk into a theatre a familiar song plays in the back of my head. The song is ‘As If We Never Said Goodbye’ from the musical Sunset Blvd. the song talks about how Norma Desmond returns to the studio after a long absence. I guess this song fits perfectly with my life. I studied theatre in college, learned way too much, and fell in love with every aspect of it. Then after graduation, nothing happened. I went on new adventures but only to return home to find nothing but a desk job. So I took it and gave up on my passion. I felt the need for money was more important. But giving up something you love will always leave you empty inside. I started to make costumes on the side and suddenly I was slowly becoming whole. It was a good thing that I have friends that love dressing up. I was able to create again. Then after some swift kicks in the ass I started to build a portfolio. Suddenly working in a call center just become a way to make money.
After many years I finally got a shot at doing a show. I would only be an assistant to the designer but that was enough for me! I was finally in a theatre again. That’s all I ever wanted. It felt right. It was truly as if we never said goodbye. It was something I could finally feel proud about. I help design a show. I felt, for the frist time in a long time, like I mattered. I worked hard on something and it showed. I felt something that call center could never give me. I picked up another show, which was Sunset Blvd oddly enough. Though I wouldn’t be the costume designer, I would be doing props. Which to me is another resume credit I can add. It’s still awesome. I can’t believe that I have returned to the place I’ve abanded for so long.
So now I embark on my hardest task yet, I’m designing a whole show. I can’t believe I just typed that. Me. A whole show. I can’t believe it. I’m ready for it.
I hope everyone comes to see it.
In conclusion, theatre is back in my life. It’s as if we never said goodbye.