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I designed another show!! Hedy LaRue and J.B. Bigley Check out...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 01:19:22 -0400

I designed another show!!
Hedy LaRue and J.B. Bigley
Check out ‘How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying’ at Greasepaint Youth Theatre in Scottsdale, Arizona. It runs June 21st-30th. Check out greasepaint.org for tickets.

sometragicfairytale: benton365: broadwill: favorite...

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 11:58:58 -0400

sometragicfairytale:

benton365:

broadwill:

favorite musicals: Wicked

“I’m through accepting limits,
cause someone says they’re so”

This musical still looks like shit. And no matter who tells me otherwise it will always be shit. This musical is on the same level as Lion King. Two shows that are way too popular and too stupid that modern audiences LOVE them. And they have the dumbest endings ever. If I never see Wicked or Lion King again, I’d be a really happy person. (Though I am seeing Lion King to prove to my friend how stupid this show is.)

Really? “This show looks like shit” Did you know Wicked and Lion King are two of the most beautiful shows out there? And no, I am not talking about plot, or characters or songs. I am talking about looks. Wicked, having some of the most intricately designed costumes in the world, and dazzling set pieces, and Lion King, having millions of puppets to recreate the African savanna. And I’m not going to even start on how the endings are not dumb, because I’ll never be able to stop. They are in no way shit. Its one thing to dislike Wicked, its another to completely bash it on a gifset about it. And it makes me absolutely sick to hear that you’re going to see a show “just to prove how bad it is” to some one. If you don’t like, don’t go. Give your ticket to someone who deserves to see the show more than you, and who will actually enjoy it and appreciate it.

I really have to say you are wrong and I will tell you why. I have loved musical theatre for many years and I have seen pretty much everything. I just don’t understand why these two shows are so popular. Wicked has one of the most confused set designs ever. I mean the whole clock doesn’t make sense and even the set designer has stated that it worked in previews but with all changes it doesn’t make sense. And the costumes, I’ve seen better. A lot better. Just look at Phantom. Now that took some real talent. It’s a shame that the designer is no longer with us. I am sorry for stating my opinion on these two shows. I did not know that someone worked so hard to rip off the commercial off to make GIF set. I apologize.

broadwill: favorite musicals: Wicked “I’m through accepting...

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 10:52:23 -0400

broadwill:

favorite musicals: Wicked

“I’m through accepting limits,
cause someone says they’re so”

This musical still looks like shit. And no matter who tells me otherwise it will always be shit. This musical is on the same level as Lion King. Two shows that are way too popular and too stupid that modern audiences LOVE them. And they have the dumbest endings ever. If I never see Wicked or Lion King again, I’d be a really happy person. (Though I am seeing Lion King to prove to my friend how stupid this show is.)

"Who would want to join this madness? Who would change my monogram? Who will be part of my..."

Thu, 06 Jun 2013 12:49:19 -0400

“Who would want to join this madness?
Who would change my monogram?
Who will be part of my circus?
Who will love me as I am?
Who will ever call to say I love you?
Send me flowers or a telegram?
Who could proudly stand beside me?
Who will love me as I am?”

- Sideshow-the musical

Sometimes...

Thu, 06 Jun 2013 12:23:41 -0400

Life never works out how you planned.
Dreams can come true,
But others dreams are just never meant to be,
Did I ever see myself with a family?
Not really.
Did I ever see myself in a long term relationship?
I did. Once.
But that dream has faded.
Did I think it would all be confusion?
No I didn’t.
Sometimes, dreams don’t plan out like you wanted,
And you slowly realize you are becoming your favorite character.
Destined to be alone,
Never finding the one.
Thinking you found it,
But seeing that you are off track.
Only to keep trying but missing the one that got away.
Sometimes you wish you would’ve tried harder,
But in the end, the only thing you got is just yourself,
The dreams in your head,
And a life with no real direction…

Completed Mario Brothers Cosplay!!

Sun, 26 May 2013 20:50:47 -0400

Completed Mario Brothers Cosplay!!

I found little me!!!

Sun, 26 May 2013 15:08:44 -0400

I found little me!!!

slammedf1: Awesome Xmen Legacy Rogue, Wasp, and Lady...

Sun, 26 May 2013 04:31:26 -0400

slammedf1:

Awesome Xmen Legacy Rogue, Wasp, and Lady Mechanica

Deandrea, it’s you!!

Comic con worn out

Sat, 25 May 2013 23:42:58 -0400

Comic con worn out

Who Am I?

Thu, 02 May 2013 01:16:23 -0400

I reflect,
In a pondering moment,
To think about a life I’ve lived,
And the future forthcoming.
I am a man, this is clear.
I am passionate,
I am caring,
I am loved,
I am compassionate,
I am a designer,
I will make you laugh,
I am cunty,
I am thoughtful
I will make you happy,
I am busy,
I am opinionated,
I am a listener,
I will love you unconditionally,
I will be your best friend,
I am determined,
I will be amazing,
I am lonely,
I am confusing,
I will never fight,
I will listen to you talk for hours,
I will debate with you and respect your thoughts and ideas,
And still love you in the end,
I am amazing,
I am a dreamer and a doer,
I am single and fear I always will be,
But who am I?
I am me,
Nothing special,
But to someone I am amazing.
And I will be there everything.
Who am I?
I am just me and that is good enough.

Epiphany Beneath Rugby and Menlo Street, For 15 years we have...

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 22:51:12 -0500

Epiphany

Beneath Rugby and Menlo Street,
For 15 years we have laid our scene,
Fifteen years of love, laughter, loss and joy.
Years of stagnant change,
Mixed with years of life being effected beyond belief.
For this has been my home, my place I come to every night, without fail.
This is the place I will return,
But it will be a place I must leave.

Tonight,
Was like any other night for any one else,
Except for one, where tonight was different,
With the words of Joni Mitchell being piped into his ears,
He reflects on chances missed,
The progress that has been made,
The relationships lost, and the ones remade.
For fifteen years,
This is where the story began and ended,
Beneath the amber street lights,
And the silence of the street,
It has become abundantly clear, that this story must end,
A new one must start.
For closing this chapter will be the hardest,
So many memories,
But there are new worlds to explore,
Other street signs to begin a new story below.

Tonight was just like any other night for some,
But tonight,
For one person,
With the song ‘Both Sides, Now’ piped into his ears,
He has an epiphany,
That this story must end,
And new story must begin…

thechriscrocker: Is it weird I started shaking as I read...

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 08:57:14 -0500

thechriscrocker:

Is it weird I started shaking as I read this?

Truth.

The Time After That.

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 01:05:55 -0500

Nothing last,
That I know for sure.
But life changes and the changes can be unforeseen.
When something doesn’t work out,
Things much change.
I know while my last relationship wasn’t the greatest.
Nor was it the best time of my life.
I felt empty, like I was missing something even though I had everything I wanted.
I guess it was the person wasn’t what I wanted.
An intelligent conversation was something they could never hold,
And they only wanted ONE thing.
A relationship about that was always faulted.
When it ended I was sad, for a moment.
I gave a year of my life to work on something that didn’t fulfill me mentally or emotionally.
I was empty, even before the end.
When ‘I Love you’ is said out of connivence and has no real feeling to it.
Now I have this time to reflect,
Think about what happened,
And how it was ended, not face to face but over the phone.
That’s no way to say goodbye.

Now time has past,
And there are prospect of starting anew.
It’s time to move on, beyond the past.
Hopefully the next will be better than the last.
Where it is one where we support each other and there is no jealousy.
Where we go on adventures together,
And I never have to spend a moment without you.
We will be each other rocks,
We will laugh and never take anything too serious,
We will have the relationship I aspire to have,
We will have an amazing life, where moments are not wasted.
You will be my everything.
My sky, my moon, my stars, and my oceans.
There will never be anyone else but you.
You will always bring a smile to my face,
When I hold your hand I’ll never let go,
No matter who is around.
When you call, I’ll always pick up,
I will never let you go.

I will be amazing.
I won’t repeat the past.
You will make me whole, while I hopefully do the same for you.

You won’t be a rebound, you’ll be the one.
The only.

How I wish you’d show up.
Sometime soon.
So our lives together can finally begin.

The End of That.

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 01:15:40 -0500

I never really talk about it much.
There isn’t much need to.
I’ll make a casual reference to something and only replace their name with ‘that idiot that had teeth that look like busted window panes.’
The relationship I had wasn’t anything amazing.
It was nothing to write home about or tell anyone about.
It was just something that dragged along till an end.
An end that should have happen well before the year mark.
I haven’t though about this person much since it ended.
I do remember the parting words, ‘Maybe someday we can rekindle this again.’
With a stupid phrase like that my memory was suddenly about the year and half was erased.
I was over it and I was onto bigger and better things.
But now enough time has past and I’ve begun to reflect.
Thinking about the annoyances,
The sorta good times,
The very rare amazing times,
And I think about my ablitlity to handle a relationship.
When I reflect on this year I think about all the things I missed,
All the people I could’ve dated,
Only to end up with this one.
I felt like I could do better.
Even in the more personal moments, I was thinking of someone else.
Someone better, someone I already met,
Someone more amazing than what I was settling with.
I feel when this happens, it’s time to get out.
As I was ending up in a relationship my professional life was finally changing.
When a life long dream happens, you can’t let something like that go,
And a relationship shouldn’t hold you back,
It should help you grow,
But when it becomes a race over jealousy, something like this cannot survive.
It also came down to friends as well.
With my friends we can laugh for hours and nothing is ever serious.
With their friends they didn’t know how to laugh and alcohol was always needed.
Maybe they were too white trash for me,
It is still unclear in my mind.
I need someone classier, who can laugh at my jokes, and just makes me happy to be around,
Who knows where I’ll end up,
Who knows if I’ll ever have kids
But I know one chapter is over,
I lived,
And most importantly I learned,
Never to repeat those mistakes.
I know the next chapter will be better than the last.

Oh my stars!!

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 19:46:18 -0500

I just got an awesome new follower!!

I have the urge to buy or sell Tupperware right now!!

2012: Reflections, Laughter, and Life.

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 02:43:01 -0500

Oh it’s coming.

Time to get ready!! :)

Another Sweeney Todd photo.

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 01:52:22 -0400

Another Sweeney Todd photo.

I designed a show. Me. I have done more this year then in the...

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 01:50:06 -0400

I designed a show.

Me.

I have done more this year then in the past.

I am becoming more and more bored with the call center life.

It’s time to move on to bigger and better things.

Mormons Blah Blah Blah- a rant.

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 01:47:02 -0400

Okay, I’m just going to come out and say this. I hate religion. I hate every aspect of religion. For everyone who follow a religion, I’m sorry. Your god is about as real as the Easter Bunny and Santa Clause. Sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but anyone who can at least think for themselves and not depend on some religion should know this.

So I’m watching an NBC special about Mormonism because I wanted it to be shown in a real light. So far it only pisses me off. I wish I could explain this in words but I can’t. I’ll just do a list because Mormons suck and they should change.

-Women are not equal to Man. Get with the damn times!!! Women and men are equal. Change your stupid rules

-black people were banned until 1972. Come on, really. Why would ANYONE want to be apart of this.

-they don’t drink caffeine. Ugh.

-no alcohol. Have fun in your stupid white bread existence.

-the magic underwear exists. Jewish people were better. Payer shaws are greater than magic underwear.

-pologomy is a good thing. And the women get shafted. The man wins. Come on. THIS IS STUPID!!

-missions to make you Mormon. I will slam the door in your face every time. I will never become Mormon.

-being gay was consider a sickness and they will go to therapy to be changed. FUUUUCCCCK YOU!!! But gays can serve in a position but must be celebate. Are you kidding me?? So the straight male can have sex with different women but the gay guy can’t do anything. Sucks to be you.

-they spend up to three hours in church. Talk about a complete waste of time.

-non Mormons cannot go inside of the temple. So if a family member is getting married you cannot be apart of the being sealed ceremony. Come on. I’m getting more annoyed.

-the church only cares for its own. And as a non Mormon I will gladly say I wouldn’t want your stupid help anyways.

-they fast once a month and give the money they would have spent on food to the church. And they give 10% to the church. NO ONE is getting any of my money. Its bad enough the government gets it. But i would never give it to a church. I will not be brainwashed!

-a Mormon could be president. I will move to Canada. It’s nicer there and they have free health care.

I’m annoyed. I’m going to stop.

Theatre. Life.

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 14:12:00 -0400

Every time I walk into a theatre a familiar song plays in the back of my head. The song is ‘As If We Never Said Goodbye’ from the musical Sunset Blvd. the song talks about how Norma Desmond returns to the studio after a long absence. I guess this song fits perfectly with my life. I studied theatre in college, learned way too much, and fell in love with every aspect of it. Then after graduation, nothing happened. I went on new adventures but only to return home to find nothing but a desk job. So I took it and gave up on my passion. I felt the need for money was more important. But giving up something you love will always leave you empty inside. I started to make costumes on the side and suddenly I was slowly becoming whole. It was a good thing that I have friends that love dressing up. I was able to create again. Then after some swift kicks in the ass I started to build a portfolio. Suddenly working in a call center just become a way to make money.

After many years I finally got a shot at doing a show. I would only be an assistant to the designer but that was enough for me! I was finally in a theatre again. That’s all I ever wanted. It felt right. It was truly as if we never said goodbye. It was something I could finally feel proud about. I help design a show. I felt, for the frist time in a long time, like I mattered. I worked hard on something and it showed. I felt something that call center could never give me. I picked up another show, which was Sunset Blvd oddly enough. Though I wouldn’t be the costume designer, I would be doing props. Which to me is another resume credit I can add. It’s still awesome. I can’t believe that I have returned to the place I’ve abanded for so long.

So now I embark on my hardest task yet, I’m designing a whole show. I can’t believe I just typed that. Me. A whole show. I can’t believe it. I’m ready for it.

I hope everyone comes to see it.

In conclusion, theatre is back in my life. It’s as if we never said goodbye.